After a week of hell: stress, doctors appointments, crisis after dramatic crisis. I was exhausted, fragile n had enough essentially.
But instead of running, seeking reassurance, or pushing those i truly cared for away. I stopped: asked questions. I knew i was worth sticking around for! I knew my self worth n how resilient I am.
So why did i think after a simple miscommunication i would lose everything. Was i not worth a reconciliation ? Was i not worth a little understanding...
My mother always told me "you only get hurt when you expect things" my father never met up to the father expectation so i learned early. I dont expect anything... I dont even plan ahead. I never know where im going to be 12 months from now. So why expect a perfect relationship n all that bullshit essentially. Can we not just enjoy today and be secure in knowing we are worth sticking around for?
Things change, people change so right now: thats what matters.
I know im worth it, i know how awesome i am how much my heart gives n i know my worth.. I also dont think im above anyone nor do i pitty those who dont see or respect my worth.
I simply myself as a fitting everywhere, always moving always willing to try something new.
So if thats the case : know your self worth. The difference between reassurance and clarirty is a back bone.
Own it!
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