Humanity

We forget sometimes, that we are not a bottom line, a social security, a password, an image, a mouth to feed, a responsibility, a liability: a number.

We forget that behind each face we see, each hand we shake, each conversation: is a larger story.

We forget the origin, the beginning, the evolution : how we got here.

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Today I remember that:
everyone is a soul, each soul has a purpose, each one of us is unique, each soul carries a story.

Some are new: confused, easily guided, in this world the new are plenty.

Some have: seen the ages, learned from past mistakes, are determined to make a difference.

I am one of many

I am here to create change

I am here to help others

I am here as a martyr of change

Personal yearning is human but it is not in fulfilling the void of our ego that maintains us.

It is feeding our soul, our purpose, our connection that fulfills us.

Some will understand this message some will read...

I just need to affirm my purpose for myself, remind myself it's their story, their souls that matter.

I am simply the messenger of a greater picture.

Today FEAR is only a four letter word

Everyday is like a new adventure 

for everyone but me

I have sipped this coffee

Sat on this bed

Held this hand

This is home

This is a new adventure for everyone but me

When you stride the rungs

leap the gaps

in constant free fall

You get used

to the wind in hair

the constant pull

 free falling into

 fates choice

No end 

no floor

  land

feet finding 

no carpet, no stone

blacktop

is only a mirage

Black shows me

the endless possibility

the  joy of

this

Love is never a

pad lock in key

unless your being held

Keep falling

instead 

the dream is only feared

by those who prefer 

the cage

Limit

less

the fall

I will grasp

carry those I love 

with me

Ending

the freedom

of the starlite sky

the supernova's

we will end 

in an explosion

like every other

star

free falling

in a dark lit sky

What defines us?

What defines us?

These days I find its down to the bottom line of how much we make, how prestigious our job is...

We are losing sight of what matters!

What we do for a living that allows us to fully live our lives does not define who we are.
It is arbitrarilly chosen by the powers that be and circumstance.
Sometimes we must move beyond the simple narrow minded view of others, and look towards the larger picture.

I will not be defines by the job I do.
I will not be defined by how I make my income. Its things outside of that, that truly defines me.

I am committing my life to bettering the lives of others.
That counts for something.
I am penning a new book on the inner strength of the body and spirit.

I am looking to bring hope to this place that seems so desolate to me.

So I am taking a day to re-evaluate.
To re-charge

Tommorow I will tackle the world of JOB

Right now I will create something to share with the world.
I its not what I will do everyday 9-5 that will define me, it is the larger dream, the larger goal that will envelope me and drive me to a place of wholeness.
 

You have to be the lighthouse..... right?

Its a phrase I have been mulling over...

You have to be your own lighthouse. Standing on the shore being strong, attracting those boats to you!

But on the shore, its windy, its cold, your alone in that lighthouse. Its winter there's snow, not many boats are passing by. It get lonely out there all on your own.

I wonder if I want to be part of the village instead, cozying up in front of a fire in a pub with some fine young thing and making myself happy.

Its a strange phrase. I understand it, but it promotes a sense of loneliness. As if there is only one boat for you, one path and you have to stand on your own all alone to get it. I mean yes it is important to stand strong in your beliefs, not sacrifice your own happiness and never run after every little thing that gives you attention.
You have to somehow keep those strong beliefs of "I CAN DO THIS!" and have no fear in the face of loneliness.

I also thinks its important to relish in others company, go out, find a community, find strength of yourself reflected in those around you. No one does this alone...
NO one stands like a lighthouse on the shore of forever waiting for their boat to come in. They visit the village, they cook, they make things, its all about striking a balance.

I want to be strong, confident, and powerful. A survivor of my own lifes misfortune. But I also want to be part of you, have my heart be the one you write ur poems on. I want to be part of the love that is spread, from one touch to another.

I find being a light is important, but be a torch that can be passed from hand to hand spreading your joy, your confidence your power. Be the one others can learn from. Be the example.

Don't be the lonely lighthouse...

Fill the air : let your life have meaning

tell your soul
that it´s deep and true
tell your heart
that every day is new
tell your voice
that every song´s a bird
and put some truth
into every word

tell your soul
that it´s pure and kind
tell your heart
to leave all worries behind
tell your voice
to make each song a prayer
to make it heard
and to fill the air

fill the air

tell the day
that it’s bright and new
and tell the morning
to let midnight through
tell the hours
to make each minute pray
to live it out
and to fill the air

fill the air
- eivor

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-GSWib4d_c

Waking life

I feel as if I am somehow alive an dead at the same time... As if life is simply the same as dreaming with a different element of control and freedom.

What if you are dreaming right now? How do you know what dreaming is.. Maybe your alive in your dreams and dreaming right this second...

These are questions you must ask yourself.. In the end does it matter.. If you alive right now how are you living?
Are you living everyday to the fullest potential? Or are you waiting for your dream state to escape the life you live..

What if you lived your life like a dream? What if you chose to live outside of the boundaries of everyday life? What if you wanted something you simply asked for it? What are you doing right now to fulfill your destiny your dream?
Or are you going to dream away Ur waking life .. N live away your dream state?

I think fear and isolation are the two main factors in deciding what we are ..
Dreaming or awake.. If were awake we have responsibility , we fear rejection by society and ultimately we fear death...

What if we Removed thoughs confines and simply relax into being. Accepted this is out state and we will choose to live it to the best to our ability. Because we deserve life, happiness joy love.. All come from living out your will.. Your true potential..

I realize it's lonely on the shore of your life.. Being the lighthouse stable and confident can get lonely.. It can be isolating.. But if we reach out.. Pull those people closer to us.. It will be more manageable.

I am saying in short; if you were dreaming right now.. And this was your escape .. Would you be happy?

Fear: melancholia

After Forcing myself out again tonight I took to watching a film called melancholia.

Fitting in it's title and easily relatable.
Part one Justine : a wedding the bride wasn't happy, she wanted the wedding to please everyone but herself. In the end pleasing no one and losing everything.

This planet melancholia is approaching earth and going to destroy it. Fitting metaphor for that critically depressive point, where nothing matters, and everything hurts... Where there is no where to hide and nothing is going to save u...

Part two: Claire
The loving sister who cares for Juliette through her "I'm unable to bathe stage... " and we have all been there.

The planet passes and relief comes then returns .. Dances toward the earth in this hypnotic dance... Like a car crash unable to stop and unable to
Turn away....

If you take it as a metaphor an illustration if you will of depression n sadness. You see it comming but it hypnotizes u... And what's more fun then to watch a girls self destruction right... I am still mulling over the metaphors in awe of it's accuracy.

You see the one (husband of Claire) who puts in faith in science as if it will save him. An absolute: nothing can be false in science... When his beliefs prove faulty he crumbles n commits suicide.. A common affliction among us I know..

Then Claire who was so put together, living caring for her ill sister.. It is as if Claire wakes up when her death is approaching and she fights hysterically until her last moment realizing she will lose everything... And cries...

And Justine who knows she has nothing left to lose has the most strength in the end. She has seen death n this life is no use to her. She accepts her fate.. Is strong

I metaphor for life it seems... We know I have seen death, know it's value. There is nothing I can believe in more then my own experience .. My own beliefs and in the end when you have nothing to lose you are the strongest you will ever be...

Fear nothing ... Life should be lived in each moment... Each experience ..
Melancholia will come .. What will u do then?