I found myself not continuing with this blog these past couple of weeks. I was scared to leave my house again, all my time was spent either with him or shut up in my appt. Not ok !
I forgot to do things that were scary! I forgot my mission in the city ! I got spooked by someone who was holding my heart ... Fragile I was affraid of even the smallest misstep.
I have since took back my heart, my power and went out tonight. I went with coffin boy to a friends. We made a veggie curry and watched a German foreign film that was amazing !!!
I forgot how important it was to just get out and go. Put Urself out there ! I owe them a bottle of wine for real!
Next movie night or jenni's party! N fuck I am going to her party this time I get invited! dressed as a doll n gonna put myself out. Cause guess what I can!
So lesson here is keep just pushing Urself to go n have fun! I must listen to myself, take my own advice and keep this up or I'm gonna be a depressed mess..
I am gonna do this! <<33
Alone<3
You really never fail to amaze me with your strength! Even though we barely chatted lately you inspired me a lot just by reading your blog. If I'll be at least half as strong as you are I'm sure I'll be able to attend my orchestra rehearsal today. Thank you so much for sharing this blog. <3
ReplyDeleteAnd of course good luck, I'm sure you'll make it! <3 xoxo