Fear of wanting more =guilt complex

Yesterday I was confronted with the question: "if you could manifest anything in Ur life what would you want?"

I said nothing: I have good job, in school n doing ok, good friends in the world, and here. Really needing nothing ! But then I said "but what do I want!"

It's hard to let yourself be selfish in these situations. You see those around you struggle and are thankful for what you have. You don't want to be selfish and ask for more, ask for better when you see everyone around you is asking to survive.

But I thought to myself I am not gonna have many chances to manifest with such power... And I am helping those around me as well.

( I have been working on Magick candles all week for my gypsy family!)

So I guess instead of looking at things I could control, money, school, friends etc. I started investigating things out of my control like: school applications for my masters, and getting into the program I'm so desperately working towards.

So I didn't manifest things I could immediately control with hard work. But I allowed myself to dream of the future and go where I would like to in the world. Who am I? Right?

So I asked for something without being afraid of the karmic repercussions. Knowing this is something I am working towards too, so this is just and aid!

I have a hard time being selfish.... But for this I will:)